The Moon

We're both staring at each other

Like lovers in love

But the distance keeping us together

is killing us both

Your shimmering glow

embraces and takes me away from darkness

The silence and you

is all I need

to help me from desolation and grief

Them Part 2

Now all of my friends want to star in my post. funny, they told me they'll keep on refreshing my blog's page hoping some day their names will appear on my post,too. one at a time guys.

Name: Tyron S.

Title: The Confused

Pet Peeve: People asking questions

Likes: Photography

Hates: his crappy DSLR

Quote: "Ayaw kataranta kay hitsuraan ta!"

My, my, my Tyron...I think my SLR is way better than yours.*evil laugh* But nothing ever compares to your shots. I may have a better Nikon but you're still good in capturing candid captions. My D5000 is better than your D40 but you're still better when it comes to editing and I may have a better and more expensive one than yours but you're far better in pressing and turning the knobs on our gadgets.

It still boils down to one thing though - mine is better than yours. *wink*

We're not batch mates not even college mates but he's the one who worked on my beautiful portfolio (of course thanks for Mike G. for his clothes. those were not mine). He's good tinkering with cameras and other gadgets but somehow slow on Physics. hahaha. Don't worry Ty, I flunked Physics,too. If there's one emo kid that I would like to burn in a stake, that would be him. Just kidding. He's confused in a way that he wants to please people but he can't people it's because you can't please anybody, Ty.

Name: Eileen B.

Title: The Bad Hairday

Pet Peeve: Me! wahahahah

Likes: Food

Hates: Me!

Quote: "Let's buy some more wax to remove my mustache"

Her name's Eileen but I normally call her Jahzel (pronounced as Jay-zel). Sometimes the bushy girl or the big-mouth girl. I've known Jahzel for years now and up to now, I still annoy her like hell and she doesn't want it. Who would? *big grin* especially when it comes to her hair. Almost everyday I told her about her hair that it looks like a mane of a lion - too unruly, no patterns and most of all, she looks like an afro. See, that's why her pet peeve's me. We -together with our classmate Liezl ate at the same time, study at the same time and even walk at the same time except for her, well for the last part no really.You see, she's slow. too slow. like molasses dripping kinda slow. she's dragging us down. At noontime and it's freaking hot, she normally walks waltzing like the weather's cool but it' not! Maybe, just maybe there's an A/C hiding beneath her hair. goodness, I'm corny.

Name: Niño P.

Title: The Party Person

Pet peeve: Party Poopers

Likes: Do i have to answer this? *wink*

Hates: Past relationships

Quotes: "ROW!" "anxia na kung anxia!" "bonggang-bongga"

Kuya nins - we call him that. of course the fact that he's tall and also the fact that he's way older than us, you know, respect your elders. We were classmates back in College from 1st to 2nd year but he...hmm...how do I say this in order for him not to get offended...uhh...I know.... he changed his destiny in another school. :) but we still had a lot of fun even though he's been transferred to our rival nursing school. We always gate crash at their mansion during and after college. His family is so cool that we even get to stay up late and all. Kuya nin's is also a badass singer. bumibirit ang tae! I know he's better but wait till I get back, Karaoke time! He's obsessed with going to the gym and losing weight but he also smokes, eat and drinks a lot so his gym sessions were useless.

Coming

I watched in dismay

as the clock's hands strikes nine

When can I get out of here

My beating heart couldn't take it no more

Your presence I need the most

Craving for your gentle caress

Don't worry, my love

I'll be there soon

Summer

The humid air is starting to awaken

as the scorching sun greets the world Hello

The warm feeling of the sun's rays

ending the flowers' joyful buds as they wilt

Returning the rainbow colored world

into a hazy and indistinct gray

Oh, how I miss the soothing rain

Holy Week

I totally forgot, Holy Week is coming or is it already this week. I don't know. I'm sorry the Middle East doesn't have that kind of Celebration, you already know why.

I love the Holy Week - the silence, the discerning of people who Christ really is and how He perished and died for us to redeem us from salvation. It's also the time where family members don't have work and end up being at home together with the other household members. Eating rice cakes, fish and watching Christian films is always as its best when it comes to this time of the year.

Unfortunately, some people don't understand what Holy Week really is. For some people, it's a time for vacation. I just don't know why. They go to beaches and resorts just to relax and to chill amidst their tiring work life. Drinking and partying is on their list, too. They forgot Him. The one who gives them money for their fare and accommodation and food and the booze they drink but the people totally forgot God or Christ.

I'm not trying to have a sermon here but that's just the way I see. Why don't they just stay on their homes with their families, discerning and contemplating the fruits of their labor and thanking the Omnipotent One for the blessings. I'm not anti - party or vacation but when you're there, try to at least remember that during the Holy week (even though this is not the actual week Christ died) some things should be remembered and enjoyed aside from partying.

Bath

Turning the knob and closing the door

I can feel sanctuary inside these four walls

The silence I heard except for the streaming of water

gushing out of the mouths of faucets

Naked am I going inside

Feeling the coldness as drips of water running down

from my bosom to my foot

Rejuvenated, at last

Them Part 1

It's been a while now since I stayed here in Qatar and I still didn't gain any friends other than my household members. Yes, I made some but not we're not really that close yet. That's why I think of my friends in the Philippines a lot just to keep me company although not physically but the way we laugh and make jokes back then feels like they're just here with me. These are some of my College friends that I miss:

Name: Carmelle F.

Title: The Racist

Pet Peeve: Yamar's acting. hahah

Hates: no internet and brown outs.

Likes: the color Purple

Quote: "wala lagi kay syphilis kay virgin pa ka!"

If you're looking for a perfect girl - tall, great vital statistics, toned, and white complexion - well, better find someone else because that really doesn't describe her even a bit. she's tall alright but I'm taller. We were classmates back then in College and had a blast together. Talking nonsense, eating a lot, and copying each other's notes and answers during exams sometimes. well, not really sometimes. all the time. I remembered the time when both of us got the highest score during a long exam which made us pass the whole subject. Two heads are better than one, as I say. We were seat mates on our Nursing Review, too! Which made me think that I would definitely fail since we both sometimes don't listen to the instructor and just eat siomai outside the room. Thank God we both passed the board. What I miss about her is the constant nonsense raving which then turns into a boom of laughter and when asked about what's funny, she doesn't really know.

Name: Yahya- Mar A.(yes, he's a muslim)

Title: The Timid

Pet Peeve: being sweaty

Hates: Pork

Likes: Staring at the moon, listening to the gushing waves -totally emo

Quote: "Unsa gani spelling sa tongue? T-O-U-N-G-E bah? tama ba?"

I still remembered how he said that quote. with utmost naive and an innocent-ish look, he asked me discreetly but I blurted out in laughter which somehow spilled it so the whole group knew. Yam's the dead-ma type of boy and I thought them Muslims are fierce and all that but him, he's not. Both Chen and I kind of like his company because he's our laughing stock and he doesn't mind being one. When either Chen and I we're being laughed at, we can sometimes be easily affected but not him. He just laughed at it also and jives in with the group's groove. He's also Chen's favorite past time for Carmelle is one heck of a racist but he doesn't mind.

Name: Mike G.

Title: The Hypertensive One

Pet Peeve: People better than him

Hates: Failure

Likes: Fancy Clothes

Quote: "Sakto ko ui! sakto lagi ko! sakto ko! diba? diba? diba? wait lang. sakto ba ko?"

The Metro-sexual among the group he's kind of good on choosing and wearing clothes which makes us personal assistants when we're with him. He's also the tallest one which makes me short, Chen shorter, and Yam's a Hobbit. He's practically good in class which annoys us because he didn't let us copy his answers. But sometimes, he does though but only 5-10 questions. bummer. He gets angry a lot when it comes to rationalizing answers. His answers should be correct because he studied it and justifies it over and over again until the answers are out and he's wrong and we're all right. He's too assertive for a male species. Well, of course, he's born with a lawyer mom.

More friends to come!

Missing you guys,

Paul the Invisible

Letter

I'm sorry. This blog is my only outlet. I can't see you often. I don't care if you're never gonna read this. actually, I do care but I don't have a choice. that's yours so I'm going to respect that. I am not gonna cry again as promised but somehow I just can't hold back the tears.

I'm sorry.

GLEEK!

Quinn: "I don't care if that baby comes out with a mohawk, I will go to my grave claiming it is Finn's."
Puck: "It would be pretty awesome if it came out with a mohawk."

Darn, I love this series! I think I've watched this 5 times already and I can't wait on April 13, 2010 for their next episodes.

However, my friends told me that they've already watched it in a pirated DVD. The last 9 episodes were being sold in stores there in the Philippines. I was so jealous because I can't find any torrents or files that can be downloaded here. They're always bugging me with a lot of spoilers and I can't stand it. I wanna watch it myself. thanks guys. sigh. wish I was there to watch them series.

Can't fight this feeling anymore,

Paul

Realization

Of all the guys out there, why me? Well, you can't expect much from me. I'm not rich. I don't have a job and most of all, I'm not your usual dream guy that can be found on magazines and catalogs.

Why me, then?

I don't know. Sometimes, I have this insecurity that all you dream about of a perfect man wouldn't fit me. Perfect hair, chiseled chests, etc. I'm sorry but I can't do that. I can but you have to expect results maybe in a year or two. With your current status in life now, you can pick up any guy you want, well not on the streets, but in your office or somewhere where you chill out and go to like bars and clubs.

Why me?

I don't drink and smoke. It's not that I hate myself for not being alcoholic and a social smoker but people think of me as boring and dry and too righteous. I don't have to smoke and drink to be cool, you know. well, if you don't like it that way, then why don't you just leave me?

I come to realize that I am not fit to be yours. You see, there are still a lot of fish in a sea and I don't compare myself as one of them. Maybe I'm not fit to be one of your fishes. Maybe you'll find someone better than me.

I'm an electric eel. hahahah.

Paul