Yesterday, I made the most stupid mistake in my entire life. I cheated. I was caught red handed and there's no use denying. I kept telling myself why did I do it. Why did I manage to hoard more people coming into my life?
Hear my side.
I don't have work yet. For 3 months stay here in the Middle East, I didn't gain new friends outside the house. I just need someone to talk to. I have you, yes but you're sometimes busy and sometimes I nag about talking but you're tired and all so I respect that. I don't know.
I really can't write well because I know it's my fault and I can't reason out anymore. Game over. End of the line. Sigh. Even if I still chatter words to say, I'd still lose. I'll admit that.
Where will I start?
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Migraine
I like the above photo, by the way. It really depicts how imps can be a pain in the ass.Throbbing. Gnawing. Teeth gritting. Stomach belching. Although those words are exaggerated but it's true. The pain I'm feeling right now is excruciating. I have migraine, or so I thought. My household member told me blatantly it's migraine because the pain is unilateral which means the pain is only experienced on either side of the brain, not both. I then researched and read Wikipedia and she's right. Smart ass.
According to Wikipedia, several studies have found some migraines are triggered by changes in weather. One study noted 62% of the subjects thought weather was a factor but only 51% were sensitive to weather changes. This is true in my case since I'm in the Middle East and it's freaking hot in here. The air is humid, too. I so want to wear an umbrella, but I found out that no one is wearing or even bringing those outside!
As I write this post, my right head pulsates like a leaping heartbeat. I tried to sleep awhile ago but my head was so painful that I grit my teeth just to make it stop. This is the first time I had one of these tension headaches. I experienced a lot of headaches back in the Philippines but nothing compares to this one.
Pain Scale 8/10,
Paul
Monday, April 19, 2010
Meh?
Argh! I can't think of anything to post. I don't want to upload already uploaded Youtube videos, I'm too tired to give book reviews and I don't want to be emo at this very moment. Sigh. Maybe I need to take a rest. This insomniac thing is killing me. I need to sleep. pronto.
Morbid
So I had this dream. A not so scary one. I had to blog* it so that I'm not gonna forget it and to tell you people how dreams can be stupid sometimes. It's supposed to be a nightmare but it was very funny so it's a nightmare-comedy-ish type of a situation. The succeeding story can be quite stupid.
It was midnight and I'm with my friends joy riding. we made our way across the shallow swamp pass the bridge and suddenly our bus stopped. There were people gathering around our vehicle and broke one of the mirrors of the bus and reached one of my friends. She got stolen by men wearing white robes. They raped her and after that they tore her to pieces. She screamed and my other 4 friends also screamed and cried but we can't do anything. She was then being eaten and we somehow saw her body getting smaller and smaller.
"Quick! here!" said a friend. "'I've got a magic carpet!"
Hahahah. I can't stop laughing while posting. Sheesh! A magic carpet daw oh? Anyway...
We hopped on the magic carpet and one of the white men threw a sword at us and impaled one of my friends' head got killed immediately. My other friends saw it and screamed. Some teary-eyed and scared but I wasn't because I keep singing "A Whole New World." You know, Aladdin? Carpet? You get the point. Now only three of us left. As the silence grew louder, I can now feel the hellish scream and the groaning and the horror sinking in. I was now the scared and frightened. All of us were.
We managed to "park" our "ride" on a nearby McDonald's Drive-thru Fast food Chain. The place was eerie. So quiet you can feel the squeaking sound of... One Quarter Pounder,please. Large Coke DIET and Large fries. More catsup. On sachets!! Okay?We sat and we, I mean, I ate. My friends barely touched their servings. After I wiped my face with a clean tissue paper, the men in white robes followed us and entered the eatery. They ordered steaks and cotton candy with onion rings. The grumpy Asian cashier told them that onion rings are not made of onions but humans and they ran out of them human meats so they killed one of my friends and made them into rings . Blood spattered everywhere and they made it into ketchup. They dipped my onion-made friend into his own blood and devoured him ring by ring. It was gross, I tell you. After that, Marimar joined the pack and also ate the human rings. She made the big ol' men happy by dancing on their laps.
As they're busy lap dancing, we slipped inside the kitchen to the staff door and immediately went into the magic carpet and I was awaken by a beeping sound. The alarm clock really did a good job.
See, it's stupid. I don't what happened to me after that. I want to know if I slayed a dragon, found a suitable partner, blah blah blah. Maybe I'll continue this again tonight.
Marimar FTW,
Sergio
*thanks to yoyen gonzaga for her great idea
It was midnight and I'm with my friends joy riding. we made our way across the shallow swamp pass the bridge and suddenly our bus stopped. There were people gathering around our vehicle and broke one of the mirrors of the bus and reached one of my friends. She got stolen by men wearing white robes. They raped her and after that they tore her to pieces. She screamed and my other 4 friends also screamed and cried but we can't do anything. She was then being eaten and we somehow saw her body getting smaller and smaller.
"Quick! here!" said a friend. "'I've got a magic carpet!"
Hahahah. I can't stop laughing while posting. Sheesh! A magic carpet daw oh? Anyway...
We hopped on the magic carpet and one of the white men threw a sword at us and impaled one of my friends' head got killed immediately. My other friends saw it and screamed. Some teary-eyed and scared but I wasn't because I keep singing "A Whole New World." You know, Aladdin? Carpet? You get the point. Now only three of us left. As the silence grew louder, I can now feel the hellish scream and the groaning and the horror sinking in. I was now the scared and frightened. All of us were.
We managed to "park" our "ride" on a nearby McDonald's Drive-thru Fast food Chain. The place was eerie. So quiet you can feel the squeaking sound of... One Quarter Pounder,please. Large Coke DIET and Large fries. More catsup. On sachets!! Okay?We sat and we, I mean, I ate. My friends barely touched their servings. After I wiped my face with a clean tissue paper, the men in white robes followed us and entered the eatery. They ordered steaks and cotton candy with onion rings. The grumpy Asian cashier told them that onion rings are not made of onions but humans and they ran out of them human meats so they killed one of my friends and made them into rings . Blood spattered everywhere and they made it into ketchup. They dipped my onion-made friend into his own blood and devoured him ring by ring. It was gross, I tell you. After that, Marimar joined the pack and also ate the human rings. She made the big ol' men happy by dancing on their laps.
As they're busy lap dancing, we slipped inside the kitchen to the staff door and immediately went into the magic carpet and I was awaken by a beeping sound. The alarm clock really did a good job.
See, it's stupid. I don't what happened to me after that. I want to know if I slayed a dragon, found a suitable partner, blah blah blah. Maybe I'll continue this again tonight.
Marimar FTW,
Sergio
*thanks to yoyen gonzaga for her great idea
Thursday, April 15, 2010
formspring.me
So I got this new application on my blog called formspring.me. It basically is a post where you can leave your questions and I'll answer them. Here are some of the questions I got:
1. Why are you blogging about your lovelife?
Holy crap. I recently got this question and I was a bit startled. At least they're reading my posts.
"Hey, the reason why I make this blog is that I want this to be my outlet whenever I'm sad or scared on things, things which I can't really tell it to my friends and family. This maybe a good outlet for me since I can just write freely without having to check any grammar or spelling so it's easy for me to write my emotions and stuff." :)
2. Do you have a girlfriend?
"If you're a girl then can you be my girlfriend and if you're the opposite sex then thanks for reading my blog. I don't like any commitments right now because I don't have the resources (and the guts) to have a stable relationship. My principle on having a relationship is that I should be the one to take care of my partner not the other way around and by that you need money. I don't have a job right and and is currently looking for one so it's kinda hard for me to enter a relationship right now. Currently, I'm dating someone - exclusively." :)
3. Closet emo?
"Absolutely. A lot of people don't know it yet because outside you find me laughing too hard without having any problems and all but sometimes, the laughing and the smiling are masking the sad Paul inside. I am a very passive person. I can be jolly and merry when going out with friends but when I arrived home, emotions start to pile up, cry and sulk which makes me an emo on the inside."
Keep on asking question guys and I'll try to answer and post them here. Thanks for reading my blog!
Excited for new questions,
Paul
1. Why are you blogging about your lovelife?
Holy crap. I recently got this question and I was a bit startled. At least they're reading my posts.
"Hey, the reason why I make this blog is that I want this to be my outlet whenever I'm sad or scared on things, things which I can't really tell it to my friends and family. This maybe a good outlet for me since I can just write freely without having to check any grammar or spelling so it's easy for me to write my emotions and stuff." :)
2. Do you have a girlfriend?
"If you're a girl then can you be my girlfriend and if you're the opposite sex then thanks for reading my blog. I don't like any commitments right now because I don't have the resources (and the guts) to have a stable relationship. My principle on having a relationship is that I should be the one to take care of my partner not the other way around and by that you need money. I don't have a job right and and is currently looking for one so it's kinda hard for me to enter a relationship right now. Currently, I'm dating someone - exclusively." :)
3. Closet emo?
"Absolutely. A lot of people don't know it yet because outside you find me laughing too hard without having any problems and all but sometimes, the laughing and the smiling are masking the sad Paul inside. I am a very passive person. I can be jolly and merry when going out with friends but when I arrived home, emotions start to pile up, cry and sulk which makes me an emo on the inside."
Keep on asking question guys and I'll try to answer and post them here. Thanks for reading my blog!
Excited for new questions,
Paul
Nocturnal
Oh, crap. Now I'm officially a nocturnal person, you know, the one who stays up all night and sleeps during the day time. Bats, possums, and other animals do this. I can't sleep during night time and is physically awake past bed time but will doze off from 10 am to 6 pm. How amazing is that?!
NOT!
Because of my unique "skill," I can't watch my favorite noontime show - Eat Bulaga. hehe. I can't help chores inside the house and most of all, my eye bags keep getting bulgier and bulgier as the days pass by! My friend told me my lack of sleep is a result of vitamin deficiency. I told her then that Centrum is a fraud and confidently said yes. Oh no!
Maybe I can survive this kind of lifestyle.
Looking Vampire-ish,
Paul
NOT!
Because of my unique "skill," I can't watch my favorite noontime show - Eat Bulaga. hehe. I can't help chores inside the house and most of all, my eye bags keep getting bulgier and bulgier as the days pass by! My friend told me my lack of sleep is a result of vitamin deficiency. I told her then that Centrum is a fraud and confidently said yes. Oh no!
Maybe I can survive this kind of lifestyle.
Looking Vampire-ish,
Paul
GLEE Episode 14
Aw,man! I was so disappointed by their comeback episode. it's a so-so one. However, their songs were good and very new, at least to compensate their loss of oomph on the current episode.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Bursting
Thinking too much can be hell sometimes. I do think too much nowadays and my brain gets numb and thinking it might explode into pieces. I don't know why I think too much these days prolly because I haven't got any proper job yet and I am caught between wars within myself. This situation I am in right now caused me to lack proper sleep, too. Usually now, I try to get some sleep early but I can't. Moreover, I wake up very early thus making me sleep throughout daytime. I don't know what to do.
Maybe I'll go back home. See, now I think about going home. what gibberish.
Maybe I'll go back home. See, now I think about going home. what gibberish.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Hanging
I grasped my phone tightly hoping you could somehow call or message me but alas, I didn't hear a beep nor the feeling of the phone vibrating. Is this what they call a Terminal phase? THE End? No, I said to myself. Things will be okay. Maybe you're just busy or doing something else. But, you could have messaged me or give me a call but neither did really happened.
So, what now?
I keep telling to myself maybe you found someone else, someone better than me. After all, you're a complete package - smart, rich, charming, etc. You can pick anyone you like. Is being coldness already a sign that you're leaving me already?
Tell me, please.
I can understand.
Crying rivers,
Paul.
So, what now?
I keep telling to myself maybe you found someone else, someone better than me. After all, you're a complete package - smart, rich, charming, etc. You can pick anyone you like. Is being coldness already a sign that you're leaving me already?
Tell me, please.
I can understand.
Crying rivers,
Paul.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Another Injury
Okay, I'm now done talking about physical Injuries and other maladies but I have a question: Which one hurts the most?
Situation 1: You're with your girlfriend and she meets her ex on a super market. You eavesdropped and fell on one of the counters and scraped your knee on the corner.
or
Situation 2: You're with your girlfriend and she meets her ex on a super market. You eavesdropped but thanks to your jujitsu skills you managed to somersault your way preventing the corner of the counter to hit you. You go back to her apartment and BOOM! your girlfriend then talks about him and how me she loves him until now.
If you chose situation 1, you're a dumbass. You better run home to your mama and hide under her skirt. On the other hand, if you choose situation 2 then you've already experienced this - an emotional injury.
Too bad I chose number 1. Or I just chose the first situation to mask my jealousy and insecurity.
Rule number 1 (well, in my rule, that is), never EVER talk about your past relationships when you're with your date. Your date doesn't care and might feel insecure about your ex-boyfriends like what happened to me. I am so sorry that I'm not a Varsity Basketball Player. I am so sorry that I am not charming, dreamy or the one who belonged to the jock team during college.
It just makes your date look silly. That's why you are dating because you're done with him, correct? Then why discuss pages of your life that's already been closed or torn? Think about it. This isn't going nowhere,then. sigh.
Mad as hell,
Paul!
Situation 1: You're with your girlfriend and she meets her ex on a super market. You eavesdropped and fell on one of the counters and scraped your knee on the corner.
or
Situation 2: You're with your girlfriend and she meets her ex on a super market. You eavesdropped but thanks to your jujitsu skills you managed to somersault your way preventing the corner of the counter to hit you. You go back to her apartment and BOOM! your girlfriend then talks about him and how me she loves him until now.
If you chose situation 1, you're a dumbass. You better run home to your mama and hide under her skirt. On the other hand, if you choose situation 2 then you've already experienced this - an emotional injury.
Too bad I chose number 1. Or I just chose the first situation to mask my jealousy and insecurity.
Rule number 1 (well, in my rule, that is), never EVER talk about your past relationships when you're with your date. Your date doesn't care and might feel insecure about your ex-boyfriends like what happened to me. I am so sorry that I'm not a Varsity Basketball Player. I am so sorry that I am not charming, dreamy or the one who belonged to the jock team during college.
It just makes your date look silly. That's why you are dating because you're done with him, correct? Then why discuss pages of your life that's already been closed or torn? Think about it. This isn't going nowhere,then. sigh.
Mad as hell,
Paul!
Injury
My right foot hurt a lot after I finished a 45-minute jog two days ago. At first the ankle was reddish and warm to touch but today, it swells and radiates to the lower part of the foot. Advil didn't help and I am still experiencing an excruciating pain which is intolerable. Minutes ago, dad bought me some anti inflammatory cream and a bandage and I used them immediately. Good riddance, the pain was gone and it's getting better as I rested my foot. I can't really walk without any difficulty today and I'm starting to look like a handicapped person which I really don't like. sigh. I hope my condition will be better before the end of the week.Blaming my old worn cheap shoes,
Paul
Monday, April 5, 2010
Survey 1
I found this on my friend's notes on Facebook.
1. Where you named after anyone?
Yeah, I do. All of my names! For Paul - a biblical name. You know, the Apostle? Paul means small or little. Wow, it's either the meaning is incorrect or my folks doesn't know what Paul means because I'm huge. For Nikolai - a great Chessmaster. My dad was a pro chess player during his younger years and he really wanted me to be a master too but unfortunately, I hate mind sports. I don't even know how to play sports!
2.When was the last time you cried?
Minutes ago when I couldn't take the pain on my right ankle anymore. I usually cry. I cry a lot. I cry when my heart broke. I cry when stressed out and I also cry when roaches fly without knowing where it'll land.
3.Do you like your handwriting?
I write best in print but worst on cursive.Thank God for the IELTS examination - people who write cursive will garner no points and thus be disqualified. :)
4.What is your favorite Lunch Meat?
I don't know what that means...oh wait.. is that the same as THE luncheon meat? the one they serve in cans when you open it, a slim cylindrical shape will just blobbed out? well if that is the meaning then my answer would be: no, I don't eat processed food.
5.Do you have kids?
I have a tamagotchi. I consider them as kids-ish.Seriously, I want to have one.
6.If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
Dumb question. of course. they call me Mr. Congeniality!
7. Would you bungee jump?
Yes, absolutely and skydive and rappel and ski and...
8.What is your favorite cereal?
Cookie Krisp. They don't taste like a cereal but they're nutritious according to their commercial.
9. Do you use sarcasm!
Of course I do! I'd love to use them! From everyday conversations to telephone chatting and even to phone sex! (sarcasm)
10.Do you untie your shoelaces when you take them off?
Mostly the shoes I wear have Velcro on them now but if I'm taking off shoes with laces, I'm just going to loosen, not untie them.
11. Do you still have tonsils?
Yes, never experienced any surgeries though except circumcision.
12. What is your favorite Ice Cream?
Ube. hahah.A purple root crop which is famous in the Philippines, and Butterscotch.
13. What is the first thing you notice about people?
The way they dress.
14.Red or Pink?
Are those the only options?
15. What is your least favorite about yourself?
Hard question. NEXT! That would be my sophistication.
16. Who do you miss the most?
My mom
17. What color pants and shoes are you're wearing right now?
Are you kidding me? It's night time and I'm wearing my pajamas.
18. What are you listening right now?
The humming sound emitting from the air condition unit
19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Better question: Is it Gray, or Grey? :) I like blue.
20. Who was the last person you've talked on the phone?
A friend. *blushes*
21. Favorite Smell?
Lemon Iced tea and shaving cream
22.Favorite Sports to watch?
See question 1.
23. Hair color?
Brown black
24.Eye color
Brown
25. Do you wear contact lenses?
I wore them when I was still in College. Glasses are for nerds plus they fog up my sight.
26.Favorite food?
Mom's cooking
27.Scary Movies or Happy Endings?
I like Happy movies with scary endings.
28. Last movie you've watched?
Inkheart.
29. What color of shirt you're wearing?
Red
30. Summer or winter?
I love Winter so that I can wear anything above the ordinary. Scarves, trench coats, bonnets, ear muffs, oh pure bliss!
31.Hugs or Kisses?
Hugs and Kisses :)
32. Book you're reading right now?
Stephen King's
33.What did you watch on TV last night?
Fantastic 4 and its sequel.
34. Do you have a special talent?
I can do somersaults. And lying :D
35. Where were you born?
I was cracked open on a bamboo tree by a bird.
36. How did you meet your insignificant other?
Popped out from my mind.
1. Where you named after anyone?
Yeah, I do. All of my names! For Paul - a biblical name. You know, the Apostle? Paul means small or little. Wow, it's either the meaning is incorrect or my folks doesn't know what Paul means because I'm huge. For Nikolai - a great Chessmaster. My dad was a pro chess player during his younger years and he really wanted me to be a master too but unfortunately, I hate mind sports. I don't even know how to play sports!
2.When was the last time you cried?
Minutes ago when I couldn't take the pain on my right ankle anymore. I usually cry. I cry a lot. I cry when my heart broke. I cry when stressed out and I also cry when roaches fly without knowing where it'll land.
3.Do you like your handwriting?
I write best in print but worst on cursive.Thank God for the IELTS examination - people who write cursive will garner no points and thus be disqualified. :)
4.What is your favorite Lunch Meat?
I don't know what that means...oh wait.. is that the same as THE luncheon meat? the one they serve in cans when you open it, a slim cylindrical shape will just blobbed out? well if that is the meaning then my answer would be: no, I don't eat processed food.
5.Do you have kids?
I have a tamagotchi. I consider them as kids-ish.Seriously, I want to have one.
6.If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
Dumb question. of course. they call me Mr. Congeniality!
7. Would you bungee jump?
Yes, absolutely and skydive and rappel and ski and...
8.What is your favorite cereal?
Cookie Krisp. They don't taste like a cereal but they're nutritious according to their commercial.
9. Do you use sarcasm!
Of course I do! I'd love to use them! From everyday conversations to telephone chatting and even to phone sex! (sarcasm)
10.Do you untie your shoelaces when you take them off?
Mostly the shoes I wear have Velcro on them now but if I'm taking off shoes with laces, I'm just going to loosen, not untie them.
11. Do you still have tonsils?
Yes, never experienced any surgeries though except circumcision.
12. What is your favorite Ice Cream?
Ube. hahah.A purple root crop which is famous in the Philippines, and Butterscotch.
13. What is the first thing you notice about people?
The way they dress.
14.Red or Pink?
Are those the only options?
15. What is your least favorite about yourself?
Hard question. NEXT! That would be my sophistication.
16. Who do you miss the most?
My mom
17. What color pants and shoes are you're wearing right now?
Are you kidding me? It's night time and I'm wearing my pajamas.
18. What are you listening right now?
The humming sound emitting from the air condition unit
19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Better question: Is it Gray, or Grey? :) I like blue.
20. Who was the last person you've talked on the phone?
A friend. *blushes*
21. Favorite Smell?
Lemon Iced tea and shaving cream
22.Favorite Sports to watch?
See question 1.
23. Hair color?
Brown black
24.Eye color
Brown
25. Do you wear contact lenses?
I wore them when I was still in College. Glasses are for nerds plus they fog up my sight.
26.Favorite food?
Mom's cooking
27.Scary Movies or Happy Endings?
I like Happy movies with scary endings.
28. Last movie you've watched?
Inkheart.
29. What color of shirt you're wearing?
Red
30. Summer or winter?
I love Winter so that I can wear anything above the ordinary. Scarves, trench coats, bonnets, ear muffs, oh pure bliss!
31.Hugs or Kisses?
Hugs and Kisses :)
32. Book you're reading right now?
Stephen King's
33.What did you watch on TV last night?
Fantastic 4 and its sequel.
34. Do you have a special talent?
I can do somersaults. And lying :D
35. Where were you born?
I was cracked open on a bamboo tree by a bird.
36. How did you meet your insignificant other?
Popped out from my mind.
Expected
We met at a mall and I could hardly recognize you because you're different the way I'd seen you in your photos. We traded numbers and talk a bit but now, a lot of times already. I enjoyed your company. I laughed hard at your jokes, I admire your childlike attributes and sometimes get really shy when you pay the bill when during our snacking together. I'm sorry, I don't have a job yet. Maybe next time,though. I like your company a lot. It makes me feel like someone is loving me. Finally, I think I am ready to fall in love again (yuck, too emo). I should give it all, I guess since I really like you and starting to love you. Smart, good and childish - these are just some of your traits that I like. My love strongly grows each time I see you.
Alas, you have someone else. The one you're committed to.
I already knew that since the beginning. At first it was just nothing to me but eventually, my jealousy grew and grew until I cry and break down in tears when I see you with the one you originally love. Maybe I can take the the title THE other person, THE third wheel, I thought
but no, I personally didn't like it but I can't do anything. I'm not trying to be possessive and that person you love may be way better than me.
The fact that I already knew it, then why did I enter this relationship anyway?
Sigh.
I can't answer the question above, I don't know why. Maybe it's because I love you so much that I am breaking rules so you will love me back. Stupid move, boy. I try myself to dissociate to the most extent but I just can't. I tried calling you and texting you but didn't receive any replies. Maybe you're also thinking the same way, too - dissociating.
I understand.
You're doing the right thing.
I'm just scared, that's all.
Alas, you have someone else. The one you're committed to.
I already knew that since the beginning. At first it was just nothing to me but eventually, my jealousy grew and grew until I cry and break down in tears when I see you with the one you originally love. Maybe I can take the the title THE other person, THE third wheel, I thought
but no, I personally didn't like it but I can't do anything. I'm not trying to be possessive and that person you love may be way better than me.
The fact that I already knew it, then why did I enter this relationship anyway?
Sigh.
I can't answer the question above, I don't know why. Maybe it's because I love you so much that I am breaking rules so you will love me back. Stupid move, boy. I try myself to dissociate to the most extent but I just can't. I tried calling you and texting you but didn't receive any replies. Maybe you're also thinking the same way, too - dissociating.
I understand.
You're doing the right thing.
I'm just scared, that's all.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Bookworm-ish
I'm back on reading Novels again and until today I am still fascinated by Stephen King's writings. His ideas were so morbid and gore-y that I like them so much. I really like reading them books ever since I watched his movie IT. His storyline is very unpredictable and even though the setting was so surreal (of course,it's fictional) but hey, when you read his books, it's like the characters and the environments just popped out of outside but it depends on your imagination though.
Overall, I like majority of his books especially The Mist, IT, Salem's Lot, and Tommy knockers. They're cool and fun to read and I like blood and gore and mutilation and killing and death and all those morbid stuff.
Doesn't like Sidney Sheldon,
Paul
Overall, I like majority of his books especially The Mist, IT, Salem's Lot, and Tommy knockers. They're cool and fun to read and I like blood and gore and mutilation and killing and death and all those morbid stuff.
Doesn't like Sidney Sheldon,
Paul
Friday, April 2, 2010
Down
I won't be blogging for awhile because my computer's broken and I have to let it fix. I will not also be tinkering on my facebook and other internet social networking sites. bummer. Stupid trojans and worms.
Bitfreaked,
Paul
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Weighing Odds
Darn, I can't go back now. I need to have a job. Any job. I don't care. I'm thinking about things I miss when I won't go back to the Philippines or I'll stay here. Last night my head baldy hurts thinking about the pro's and con's of my current situation. I don't know what am I going to do. There's so much things in life that I want to do. It's almost 3am that I felt sleepy. I had a lot of things in mind that only God can guide me.
Heart ripping,
Paul
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