Realization

Of all the guys out there, why me? Well, you can't expect much from me. I'm not rich. I don't have a job and most of all, I'm not your usual dream guy that can be found on magazines and catalogs.

Why me, then?

I don't know. Sometimes, I have this insecurity that all you dream about of a perfect man wouldn't fit me. Perfect hair, chiseled chests, etc. I'm sorry but I can't do that. I can but you have to expect results maybe in a year or two. With your current status in life now, you can pick up any guy you want, well not on the streets, but in your office or somewhere where you chill out and go to like bars and clubs.

Why me?

I don't drink and smoke. It's not that I hate myself for not being alcoholic and a social smoker but people think of me as boring and dry and too righteous. I don't have to smoke and drink to be cool, you know. well, if you don't like it that way, then why don't you just leave me?

I come to realize that I am not fit to be yours. You see, there are still a lot of fish in a sea and I don't compare myself as one of them. Maybe I'm not fit to be one of your fishes. Maybe you'll find someone better than me.

I'm an electric eel. hahahah.

Paul