Expected

We met at a mall and I could hardly recognize you because you're different the way I'd seen you in your photos. We traded numbers and talk a bit but now, a lot of times already. I enjoyed your company. I laughed hard at your jokes, I admire your childlike attributes and sometimes get really shy when you pay the bill when during our snacking together. I'm sorry, I don't have a job yet. Maybe next time,though. I like your company a lot. It makes me feel like someone is loving me. Finally, I think I am ready to fall in love again (yuck, too emo). I should give it all, I guess since I really like you and starting to love you. Smart, good and childish - these are just some of your traits that I like. My love strongly grows each time I see you.

Alas, you have someone else. The one you're committed to.

I already knew that since the beginning. At first it was just nothing to me but eventually, my jealousy grew and grew until I cry and break down in tears when I see you with the one you originally love. Maybe I can take the the title THE other person, THE third wheel, I thought
but no, I personally didn't like it but I can't do anything. I'm not trying to be possessive and that person you love may be way better than me.

The fact that I already knew it, then why did I enter this relationship anyway?

Sigh.

I can't answer the question above, I don't know why. Maybe it's because I love you so much that I am breaking rules so you will love me back. Stupid move, boy. I try myself to dissociate to the most extent but I just can't. I tried calling you and texting you but didn't receive any replies. Maybe you're also thinking the same way, too - dissociating.

I understand.

You're doing the right thing.

I'm just scared, that's all.